Phaze-Shift

Life has been a long, hot soak in a tub of liminality lately.

(Assuming “liminal” isn’t also one of your favourite words, liminal refers to threshold states: being between two worlds, states, places, or conditions. Think of the moment after waking but before you roll out of bed, the beat of silence before a drop, or 4am—when night is ending but the day hasn’t begun. 

Also planes, trains, and automobiles.)

In my present reality…

Old, worn out skins and tired identities have long been released with their next evolutions defined and coming online—but not yet fully installed or visible.

My new, music-rich life orientation has been very, very clearly and lovingly chosen, but the adventure of walking this new path has only just begun.

Around me, relationships are evolving, dying, and beginning anew.

This is one of the phases that doesn’t get talked about much when you commit to overhauling who you are, what you do, and how you show up in and meet the world.

Breakdown and breakthrough tend to get all the love in discussions of becoming.

But they’re only part of the process—and neglecting the liminal middle is folly.

For your internal weather will shift long before the external world catches up.

I’ve moved through phases like this multiple times in the past year, but this current one has easily been the longest, deepest, and most patience-testing yet. Which I think speaks to the untarnished clarity I’ve excavated from within myself.

I love my underlying orientation, and know my heading is true.

I’ve identified aligned and sustainable income sources to build.

I know precisely where I want to spend my time, energy, and focus.

I’m crystal-clear on what I’m looking for in a romantic partner.

And there are no parts of me that aren’t being expressed.

But clarity doesn’t mean your new reality flares to life instantly. 

You can’t rush shifts in others’ perceptions of you, or how the world responds to you.

These changes come surely, but slowly, in their own time. Forcing the issue breaks the spell. Reaching and grasping for desired outcomes pushes them further away.

And so the only—mind-bending and counter-intuitive—approach is to hold fast to your orientation, your path, and to continue embodying trust and continuity.

With love from the forest,

~ Alexander

P.S. Last week’s Kundalini Rising Whimsie seemed to strike a chord. With inspiration from some questions I received and the conversations that followed, I crafted an expanded, more instructive version which now lives on The Velvet Telegram:

→ Kundalini Rising: How to Wire Yourself to Hold More Life