The Revelation of Internal Architecture

Eyes wide and heart open, I looked around at what’s been built… and I wept.

A soft, pillowy, towering balloon-like structure, pulsing with each breath.

Coloured in a shade of rosy, purple-tinted red I’ve never seen before.

Delicately inlaid with strong, crisp, sacred geometric patterns.

The sheer, delicate beauty made me gasp… and I wept again.

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13 months of rebuilding my world from the inside out.

The process has been strange. Slow. Delicate. Difficult.

The trust required to build invisible things with no immediate confirmation or gratification from the external world is greater than I have words for right now.

But for me, there was no other option.

I didn’t know the scope of the journey I was embarking on.

I didn’t know what would be asked or required of me. 

I didn’t know how long the process would take.

I’m glad I didn’t know.

Committing to something is easy when you have a finite timeline.

Committing to the unknown is a leap of faith that will rewire you.

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Sacred geometric patterns aren’t woo-woo nonsense.

They’re the golden ratio, spirals, the Fibonacci sequence.

Mathematics. Architecture.

The blueprint of the Universe.

You find them in nature, in churches, in temples.

And you can find them within yourself.

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6 years ago, when I viewed my inner world, I saw a huge, black, malignant mass.

In the year that followed, the black mass evolved into a thick, green-brown, noxious sludge that dispersed through my entire body.

Now I see a rosy, purple-tinted red with nodes of blue, pink, and gold.

Now I see carefully built, stable, resilient, and powerful structures.

Structures that allow me to hold the charge that comes with the life I want to live, without fragmenting, collapsing, or self-sabotaging.

I can coexist with desire, with heat, with pressure, with stress—my centre holds.

Think of a tree being buffeted in a windstorm, bending but not breaking.

Think of a stone sitting in a river bed, stable while the water flows around.

This is what building internal structures can do for you.

Capacity. Trust. Coherence. Intuition. Embodiment. Devotion. 

These are the kinds of structures I’m talking about.

They will change your life in ways you cannot imagine.

That, I promise you.

With love from the forest,

~ Alexander