The Grounding Frenzy

I’ve been throwing myself at the ground like it's the most intoxicating lover that ever was. I’ve had no choice in the matter. I learned long ago that suppression is lethal.

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An underlying theme of the internal rewiring I’ve navigated this year has been expanding my capacity for holding high-intensity sensation. For our nervous systems can only handle so much sensation before they frazzle, fray, and snap. 

Like a muscle, without training, your capacity will be small.

This is why so many lottery winners wind up broke. They can’t handle the energetic charge that comes with their fresh fortune. So their subconscious ‘helps’ them get rid of the money through hookers and blow or cars and clothes and holidays.

This behaviour reflects their incapacity for being surprisingly thrust through the threshold of being given a life-changing amount of money. I pass no blame, but our capacity is our responsibility to tend, or not… and live with the consequences.

Or consider the male orgasm:

The whole world knows most men struggle to ‘last,’ but that need not be so.

Here too, you can expand your capacity for intense sensation.

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The fruits I seek grow on branches I cannot yet reach. So I must grow. I must expand.

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As you grow, you’ll then begin flirting with your newly expanded edges.

That’s where I’ve been this past week, and why I’ve been obsessing over grounding.

Meaning, walking, forest bathing, yoga, lifting, singing, and reading.

In contrast, psychedelic journeys, and creative binges are very ungrounding.

So none of that right now.

Otherwise I’ll drift, lose coherence, and fragment.

Which is nonsense I have no tolerance for anymore.

Once you’ve sipped the honeyed waters of coherence, anything else tastes of mud.

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So I ground when the current runs hot and fast. 

I root down, down, down.

I breathe.

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Grounding is required for integration. When you flirt with edges and thresholds, you need to spend time near them, beneath them, and around them in order to expand.

Pushing is essential, but in bursts. You can’t push forever. You can’t.

Spending time beneath, near, and around thresholds is what’s often overlooked.

You’ve gotta titrate. Step forward, step back. Push a little, then step back.

Rinse and repeat.

I’ve applied this concept to my life as a whole this year, but I learned this during my bodybuilding days. No matter how much you want to, you can’t add more weight to an exercise each time you cycle through. Thresholds are inevitable.

Growth isn’t linear.

Expansion moves in cycles.

Lulls are as crucial to the cycle as the highs.

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I remember that lulls always precede a new wave, and I grin a mile wide.

With love from the forest,

~ Alexander